What's happening now

Alright I'm not as depressed now.

I chickened out on the spell tea and stuff, just lost the will.

The weekend went fine and this weekend was pretty good, 4 days of somewhat realxed normalities. I'm goign with dad again this weekend and I'm going to get some stuff for my haloween costume.

Fortunetly I will have just recently have left dad's house and so will have had time to (maybe) do a Mabon ritual on Sunday. Still feeling kind of out of it, I don't know what I'm missing. Saturday night I felt bad, like somethign bad was going to happen you know? Nothing did, and the feeling passd mostly but still, it was strange.

THat doggy stroller thing arived and the dogs love coming shopping with us, the other day timon got sick though (puking major, but only breifly) It's really hard to talk to him, I have to guess alot because he still doesn't talk in complete sentences, he likes to send me pictures and usually only one word.

Maybe it's Autumn that I'm missing (my cat not the season) I haven't spoken to her in a while.

Maybe it's my school work, it's getting kind of overwhelming, I just don't know what to do.

As I'm typing this the bad feelings coming back. Not good.

Maybe its those signs we recieved earlier, i can't beleive I forgot to enter them here.

2 morning dove type birds died in or front yard, it seemed as though they might have crashed into the garage but there was not blood or flattned side to the bird. Then there was a dead baby lizard in the pool and mom saw two big dead coyotes when she was driving to work. all in less than a week.

All I'm saying is something weird/bad is goign down here, I can feel it. I hope it isn't all in my head.

I bought the sims two pets but I barely get anytime playing it.

It doesn't really matter, I have alot of othe rimportant things to do.

No ones emailed me for about 2 weeks.

Drat, I just realized that I have to go to that USC tailgate thing this weekend, not my favorite activity. Especially when the natural history museum and the beautiful rose gardens will be not even a half mile away from me and I won't be able to go. Instead I'll have to sit with noisy, sweary, beer drinking, music blasting tail gaiters as the smell of ciggerette fumes and barbeque smoke waft over my head. Bleck. Maybe I'll be able to block it out and read, turn it all into white noise behind me.

That's all I can really remember at the moment, If I think of anything else I'll be sure to enter it.

Doing somewhat better but still standing on a cliff, veiwing the treacherous scenery -Flickering Heart