Depressed...

So now I'm thouroughly depressed. I went to San Diego which was fine (whatever) and I'm goign with dad again this weekend.

But doublestuff (one of my cats) went missing several weeks ago and has not come back. We're getting another kitten for autumn so she won't be so terribly lonely (I talked to her about it she's about as enthusiastic as a cat of her status can get)

And because I didn't get particularly savory grades in 7th grade last year I cant go on the trip I've been waiting 2 full years to go on. This sucks not only cause I won't be on the trip to absolutely gorgeous yosemite but I'll also be without my bestfriend (Simone, who can go on the trip) for an entire week.

On top of that I didn't practice for guitar and felt horribly guilty while in my lesson yesterday.

And on top of that i have homework over the weekend.

And on top of that the house is messy which makes for one thouroughly pissed off mother.

So right now I'm just a heap of depression, whoopee. If I don't think about it too much I can move through my day (with little interest in anything) But it's hard not to think about at times and then I become even more depressed and really would rather curl up with a blanket in a dark room and sleep for hour upon hour upon hour (i'm not the suicidal type).

The good news is I did my Dedication ceremony a day before school started and the weather has started cooling down.

But that really isn't too much of a consolation on top of everything else.

I'm goign to make some Spell tea of my own design to promote focus, clarity of thought, and physcic (sp) awareness {I've been feeling kind of out of it in that aspect lately}

Maybe that'll make some things better.

I'm just hoping I'll make it through the weekend (which is funny because usually people have fears about the week)

Ever in a state of indecision and/or confusion -FH