Ick

I’m really unhappy today. Depressed and angry are two emotions that come to mind, although over it all I feel very numb.. I don’t know why.

I told mom I didn’t want to do guitar class anymore and she went all out on me “you’re so lazy! And selfish!” You don’t even do a sport or anything! (blah blah blah blah blah)” I went to class and it was ok, she still yelled at me afterwards though.

It all started this morning when I woke up from a horrible dream. A whole half of my hand was dead. There was a crater full of ashen dead skin and bone and I couldn’t move that hand at all. What freaked me out the most was the veins. They were narrow, black, rigid, dry, lifeless canals through the dust. I couldn’t feel anything. I mean, evan if the veins were alive and cut, bloodying up everything, I would have been more ok with it, blood meant life or just ended life. But life all the same.

Maybe I’m sick, I feel kind of sick, I don’t know what to do. :(

Sheesh

I jsut realized I've had this blog for like a year and I barely have any posts on it. MY LIFE IS SO INCREDIBLY BORING!!!!!!! I hate it (I dont wanna die or anything just one something to happen, anything!! please!)

Here we go

Lets dive in here shall we?

- really got to know Katy (sits behind me in Lang. Arts) had a whole poetry swap type thing
-Am now on spring reak
-got rennasaince (SP?) faire role: Falconer
- went to briannes batmitzva(sp) very fun
-Am goign over dads house fri-sat then to san diego w/ him mon-wed
-impregnated both wajas (peat pup and copi)
-found waja site (before the above^^)
-am very tired
-goign to see wicked w/simone on sunday
-am still very tired
-am totally in love with WW.com
-opened a new website (the apothacary) dont think it'll last
-easter is on sunday
-max ride poll goign terrific
-dad got a travelling job and has an apartment in Dalls (texas)
-got a great new tarot card set

that's all I can actually remember right now so let me think and I'll post again ASAP (which, conflictingly, probably won't be too soon. But let's not think about that!)